I thought maybe a shorter dress would keep him around , more lipstick.I thought if I proved how knowledgeable or opinionated I am he would finally say `She is the one’ .I thought that maybe just maybe he would say, I will take you with all your flaws.I thought he would stay for a longer time than the ones before him.I thought if he saw how `cool` I am by taking a drink or two of that brown bottle he would accept me..He didn’t.
Well maybe if I went to the extreme of smoking that pot of sheesha he would stay around. That didn’t work either.. I went back to Church, I thought well..maybe he likes Church girls.Still he wouldn’t budge and I was already burned out.
As a cover up for my hurt and brokenness I his behind the mask of a ‘feminist’.I hated almost everything about men.Anyone who tried to get near me would get a piece of my wounded heart.I built walls, cried severally at night.I was never enough for anyone..I wanted to prove myself to everyone that I really am enough.
One day a voice so soft and loving told me what I should do and I did.He showed me what love is.He showered me with joy unspeakable.I cried to Him so He could fix me and He did that and much more.He forgave me, set me free , gave me a new life, a beautiful life and now I Iive for Him.I desire Him more than anyone or anything else.I am not ashamed to write about His goodness.I wrong Him so many times yet He still stays.
So many times has He saved me from the Fowler’s snare..He has been my healer, provider, teacher, strength,hope and so much more.Without Him I am lost.
I was looking for love in people and the pleasures of this world and all this while more than 2000 years ago someone thought of me and came so He could die for me and you too reading this.
John 15:13 No one has greater love [no one has shown stronger affection] than to lay down (give up) his own life for his friends.
If you are like me before I found true love this is for you.You don’t have to try so hard anymore You can turn your life around.All you have to do is give Him all of you and watch how He will transform you. Give Him your brokenness.He loves you as you are.His Grace is sufficient.It doesn’t matter what you did.
Pray with me and confess with your mouth and believe in your heart that Jesus is Lord and God raised Him from the dead.
Heavenly Father, I believe that you gave your son Jesus Christ to die for me.I believe that He is Lord and you raised Him from the dead.Forgive me my sins, make my heart your home now and forever more Amen.
If you have prayed that prayer and believed it you are now born again.I welcome you to God’s family.You are His child now.God bless you and keep you.I love you.